every time we say goodbye...

i die a little...

i put sam on a plane back to his country yesterday. i cried. he cried. it was a mess and i am lonely.

i will be back up on the blog as soon as possible, writing like crazy like i have been before. but right now, i just want to not think.

i am going to start tracking my "no spend days" here on the blog. i'm afraid some days there may be no long entry, but if it is a no spend day, you can be sure that i will post that on the blog. i'm hoping that i have many of them in the future.

and now, i shall retreat back into my cocoon of sadness for a day or two more. then i'll be up and running again.